Kaci’s chest x-ray shows improvement!  Her lungs are still far from clear, but they are better than they were last week.  Unfortunately, Kaci’s latest stunt is to stop breathing.  Kaci has always had apnea, but rarely set off the alarms.  In the past 12 hours, she has set off the alarms 5 times!  It doesn’t freak me out because I just stimulate her and she breaths, but I (make that 7 times) would love to know why she is suddenly so worse in that area. 

Tonight Heath will stay with Kaci and I’ll go home with Kalyn, Keali, and Kynan.  I have a dentist appointment in the morning to get a crown on the tooth I had the root canal on in August.  Not really looking forward to that, but I will be happy when that is taken care of. 

Christmas is quickly approaching.  I’m having a hard time feeling it this year since we’ve been so stressed with the twins.  Yet again we are not having a Christmas tree.  Heath and I have only had a Christmas tree one time since we have been married.  We just didn’t see the point.  It was just the two of us and we lived in a very small apartment.

Then we had Kalyn.  I insisted on having a Christmas tree for Kalyn’s first Christmas.  Again, we lived in a small apartment and Kalyn was only 11 months old, so we got a two foot tree and stuck it on the table.  We moved the next year and the tree didn’t make the packing list.

We haven’t had a tree since.  Though we had more room, our children were still very young and we weren’t ever even home on Christmas day.  We couldn’t justify spending that much money on a tree and decorations.  Last year I decided would be the last year we wouldn’t have a tree.  I had planned on shopping the after Christmas sales to pick up a tree and the trimmings.  For whatever reason, I didn’t do it and we didn’t get a tree.  “No problem,” I said.  We could pick up a tree in November. 

Well.  If you have read even one post from recent weeks, you know what November has been like for us.  And December for that matter.  So.  Yet again—no tree.  And I won’t be picking up anything during the after Christmas sales this year either.  I have more important things to spend our money on—like a helicopter ride for two. 

All this said, I’m not so upset about the lack of a tree this year.  As usual we will not spend much time at home that special day (hopefully we won’t be in the hospital at all), and I don’t need a tree to remind me of the season.  Actually—I almost feel like this year is an extended Thanksgiving.  I have so much to be thankful for—and the list just keeps growing.  I feel so much gratitude for my blessings.  One day we will have a tree and it will be great.  For now we all have one another and that is pretty great too!