Kalyn did the sweetest thing this morning.  I was getting ready for my shower and I put out a towel.  Kalyn said, "Mommy, I'll get you another towel."   I explained that I already had a towel.  She said that I needed one for my hair and one for my body.  I told her no, I didn't.  I took my shower.  When I was done, I saw two towels instead of the one I placed nearby.  I looked for Kalyn.  She was crouched in a corner grinning at me!  So what if I said I only needed one towel.  She wanted to do something nice for me.  She is such a sweetie!

Kalyn actually slept all last night in her own bed.  Keali of course slept all night in my bed.  She never used to like sleeping with anyone around.  She had to be completely alone.  Not any more.  It is like pulling teeth to get her to sleep in her own bed.  Not that I'm complaining too much.  I love snuggling with my baby!

I'm getting ready to go to another conference this next weekend.  I told Kalyn about it late this last week; just to get her used to the idea of me being gone again.  She burst into tears and begged me not to go.  She would miss me too much.  Well--I have to go.  She will have fun with her Daddy and this conference isn't nearly as long as the last one. 

Work is going well.  I spend all of yesterday working on one project and it isn't even done yet.  It was very detail oriented and I took my time to make sure it was perfect.  I think I'll do pretty well with it.

This last week has been very difficult for me emotionally.  I have a scheduled appointment with my psychiatrist Monday afternoon.  I've been contemplating asking for a larger dose of my medication.  I don't think I will though.  Anti-depressants shouldn't be used to numb someone.  They should be used to help a person get to the point they can rationally deal with their emotions.  That is where I am right now.  I can rationally deal with my thoughts and emotions.  I have just had such a sad week.  I don't like feeling bad.  Who does though?