So, here I am at 2 am unable to sleep. Shocking! Imagine that...me not being able to sleep the night before a potentially life changing step. I have always been like that. I could never sleep the night before the first day of school, or Christmas Eve (okay, maybe not life changing, but Christmas was a very important gift getting holiday growing up), or job interviews, or the first day of a new job. I don't know what it is. I just cannot sleep.
Right now I am extremely wound up and stressed over this job interview. Why? I know the job. I know I can do the job. I always interview well (I have been offered every job I have ever interviewed for, save one), and I know 90 percent of the people who will be interviewing me. But I REALLY want this job. I feel like I have so much more riding on this opportunity than I have ever had before. I have never wanted a job so badly. I would be the perfect person for this job...I know it. I just have to convince everybody else. I have tried really hard not to get my hopes up for this job (I have known about the opening since June of last year), but I think I failed. I really will be upset if I don't get it.
I am as prepared as I am going to get...if I don't have it by now, then I am not going to get it before the interview.
In the morning (about 7 hours from now) the girls and I will head off to Jonesboro. I'll drop them off with my wonderful mother-in-law, then I have to do a bit of light shopping (last minute items that I discovered at 10 pm tonight that I need) and head off to the B&B I am staying at. I will try to relax for a little while and prepare for the start. I am having dinner tomorrow evening with members of the selection committee and it begins. Wednesday starts early and won't end until fairly late with a series of interviews and my presentation. Then I will go get my girls. If I am feeling up to it I may bring them home Wednesday night, or if I am tired I will bring them home Thursday morning.
At this point I am ready for it to be over. I know it will happen soon enough, and more quickly than I realize, but right now the anticipation is killing me.
Fresca did the funniest thing tonight. We had a really bad storm with a lot of rain, thunder, and lightening. When the rolling thunder started, she began making a noise that sounded a lot like the white noise from a television. And she didn't stop! It was one continuous white noise sound for 15 minutes straight. I am not even positive I heard her take a breath. At first I thought she was choking on a seed or something, but after a couple of minutes she started bopping her head and dancing from side to side. I don't know what it was...but it was hilarious!
Fresca has also taken to begging us to bring her out of her cage. Anytime we walk into the room she runs to her door and begins chirping loudly. If we get close to her she runs back and forth in front of the door, flapping her wings. Then when we actually open the door she jumps onto the seal and waits for us to offer a finger or hand. She happily jumps on and settles in for a long session of head scratching and preening. I am thrilled that we got her. She is really turning into the perfect pet bird.