No real updates on the babies this evening.  We are scheduled to transfer them back to Paragould in the morning (as long as they both behave themselves tonight), and the doctors didn’t want to change anything today.  They said they didn’t want to stress or push the babies too much since the trip will do that enough tomorrow. 

Heath and I have mixed feelings about the transfer.  We both really want to be back in Paragould so we can spend much more time with Kalyn and Keali.  We miss them so much.  I will be staying at the hospital with Kynan and Kaci while Heath will stay at home with the girls, and bring them up to visit.

While we are happy to be going back, we are both scared too.  My biggest worry is that one or both babies will get very sick and won’t have the care they may need immediately.  Heath is worried that Kaci will decide to do a 180 on the way up and they will have to turn around and the babies will be separated.  I don’t know what we would do then. 

I’m sure everything will turn out fine, but I worry none the less.  I get it from Grandma Hale.  I come by it honestly!

Let me tell you something about Kynan.  He is the freakiest sleeper ever!  He sleeps with his eyes OPEN!  I mean, wide open.  It completely creeps me out.  I don’t know why he does it, but when I see it, I gently close his eyes.  They never stay closed though.  He will inevitably re-open them within moments.  Freaky.

Sometimes, Kynan will start to cry and I will go to his isolette to hold his hand and stroke his hair.  It breaks my heart when he grabs my hand and arches his back towards me as if he is begging me to pick him up and hold him.  He looks at me pleadingly.  So sad.  Sometimes I will pick him up (it’s so weird to have to ask permission to hold my own baby!) and hold him close.  He turns towards me and starts rooting.  That breaks my heart too.  He is a precious little boy and we are so blessed to have him.

I was holding Kaci this afternoon while she ate and slept.  I was stroking her soft baby cheek and the tiny corners of her mouth would tilt upwards.  I kissed her cheek and she got a big smile.  I did it a few more times and was rewarded with some more smiles.  I know some people will say she was just twitching, but I think she knew what was happening. 

When they were born almost two weeks ago, I thought they looked very much alike.  Now, at 12 days old, I can barely tell they are siblings!  Aside from being the exact same length, and almost the same weight, they look nothing alike. 

Kynan has blond blond hair and a long slender face.  He also has a huge head (relatively speaking).  Kaci has a small chubby face and darker blond hair.  Her head is much smaller than her brothers.  They do have the same arms and legs, but I’m willing to bet that most babies their gestational age have similar appendages.  They are long arms and legs though.  They have the same long, slender, perfectly formed fingers (a gift from their Daddy), and knobbly knees.  Their feet are large for the rest of their size, but super cute to hold.

I can see so much of their older sisters in them.  Kynan and Kalyn have the same nose.  Kaci and Keali have the same nose.  Kaci, Keali, and Kalyn all have the same cheeks.  Kaci and Keali have the same ears.  Kynan has his Daddy’s ears, and I don’t know whose ears Kalyn has.  Haha!  The only part of me I see, is sometimes Kaci looks like I did when I was a newborn.  I don’t think Kynan looks like me at all. 

It doesn’t matter who they look like though, or what characteristics they each have.  I love them all dearly and can’t imagine my life with out each and every one.  Wow.  I have four children!  How did that happen?  I doubled over night!  Hard to believe.