I was so excited when I wrote the last post.  I had no idea that the next day I would wake up to a nightmare.  I still have a hard time believing that this isn’t a nightmare.  I just want to wake up from it.  I’m sure Heath does too.

Yesterday morning started like any other.  We woke up and got the girls dressed and ready for school.  I began to get ready for my shower while Heath prepared to leave with the girls.  Then I realized something wasn’t quite right.  Concerned, I told Heath.  He said, “okay.”  I told him to hurry up and take the girls to school.  About 30 seconds later, I realized that my problem was so much worse than I originally thought.  I was hemorrhaging.  Badly. 

I told Heath to give me my phone and to take the girls to school…NOW!!!  I called my doctor, then called Heath and told him that I had to get to labor and delivery immediately.  My doctor called about 2 minutes later and told me to call an ambulance. 

Heath came home after dropping  off Kalyn and he still had Keali.  He had called his Mom who was on her way to pick up Keali.  The ambulance took its time getting to our apartment, then they refused to take me to my hospital of choice.  I said, thanks but no thanks.  I’m going to my hospital with my doctor. 

Heath drove 85 all the way to Paragould.  He kept hoping to get pulled over but we never did.  I called various people to let them know what was happening, and Dad helped calm me down the last couple miles.  Heath had been telling me, “This is all normal.”  I knew very well that it was NOT normal and was glad to have Dad side with me on that.  Heath was just trying to calm me down, but I knew it wasn’t normal.

My doctor was waiting outside for me and I was rushed to labor and delivery while Heath parked the car and fought with admissions in the emergency room.  Apparently they didn’t accept the fact that we had pre-registered. 

While Heath was arguing with them, Dr. Hasik was checking me with the ultrasound.  I was happy he was purposely blocking the monitor from me.  I didn’t want to see what I was terrified of seeing.  As Heath walked into the room, Dr. Hasik said, “They both have strong heartbeats.”  I was so relieved. 

Because we didn’t know for sure why I was hemorraging (we later found out for sure it was a placental abruption) Dr. Hasik explained that we needed to do an emergency c-section.  I was just fine with that.  I was taken to the OR and prepped for surgery.  I was going to be put under general anesthesia because there wasn’t time for a spinal or epidural.  The prepping seemed to take forever.  I just wanted to be asleep so that I could wake up and see for myself the babies were okay. 

Finally they told me they started the anesthesia and within a couple seconds I was waking up again…in a LOT of pain.  I asked about the babies and was told they were doing well.  Over the course of 30 minutes I discovered that Kynan and Kaci were much smaller than originally thought.  I had asked for Kynan to be pulled out first—and they honored my request. 

Actually they didn’t have any choice...Kaci was nowhere to be found.  She was eventually located under my ribs and was tugged out, accounting for today’s bruises and soreness.  Kynan weighed 3 lbs 15 oz and born at 9:00 am.  Kaci was the larger of the two at 4 lbs 2 oz. and born at 9:03 am. They both are 16.7 inches long. 

Eventually I was taken to my room where Heath, Mamaw and Papaw were.  Shortly, my Mom arrived as did Timmy, and Brad.  I didn’t get to see the babies until I was able to stand—somewhere around 4 pm.  They are so small.  And they are so beautiful. 

The nightmare is that this is not how I wanted to have my babies.  And I wanted them to be healthy—completely.  Kynan is doing well.  Kaci doesn’t exactly want to use her lungs.  She is a bit lazy.  Last night, while visiting with April, Julie, and Patience, we were informed that Kaci was having more problems than the hospital was comfortable dealing with—and she was being sent to Little Rock to a larger hospital.  We had requested that the babies be kept together if this were to happen, so Kynan was going to.

Heath was able to fly in the helicopter with the babies to the hospital—something of a miracle because we haven’t found a single person yet who has ever known of another parent being allowed to fly with the babies.  We were very blessed. 

Dr. Hasik allowed me to be released from the hospital this morning and thanks to Mamaw, I have joined Heath and the babies in Little Rock.  Dad and Heath had told me to stay in the hospital but I really wanted to be with my babies.  Once I arrived here, I did admit to each of them that I should have stayed in the hospital.  It was NOT an easy ride for me.  I’m very very sore—quite a bit of pain, and I lost a lot of blood yesterday.  They offered to do a blood transfusion, but admitted it would probably be more trouble than it was worth.  Dr. Hasik said it would take about 3 months for me to regain what I have lost.  My abdomen is bruised and swollen, and I’m not getting much relief from my pain meds. 

Here are some pictures of our beautiful babies.  Kaci still has her breathing tube (both babies got breathing tubes last night as well as surfactant delivered straight to their lungs.  Kynan’s tube was removed this morning and he is doing well.  We hope to get Kaci’s out tomorrow, but she may choose to still be lazy.  We will see.  Please pray for our brave twins!

There are way more pics of Kynan than Kaci because Kynan is easier to photograph.  Kaci has so many tubes it is hard to get a good picture of her. 

Oh—and they both have silver/light brown hair.  Bryan got a kick out of that!

Kynan

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