Our babies are doing very well today.  Kaci is still intubated, and we may try tomorrow to extubate her.  They didn’t want to do it today because, though her blood gases are coming back really good, her pressures (though not bad) could be more consistent.  So we will give her another day to mature. 

Both kids are done with the bililights for now.  They were never really jaundiced, but they were close to the edge of being that way, so the lights were placed on them as a precaution. 

Kynan is now getting 13 ccs each time he eats and Kaci is getting 9 ccs.  They each have some residual formula after each feeding, but it isn’t bad.  Poor little Kaci though.  She is getting an enema today in the hopes that it will encourage her bowels to get a bit more active.  I feel for her!

Kalyn and Keali.  We miss them a lot.  While eating breakfast this morning, a commercial came on tv of a mother fixing pancakes for her children.  I started to cry.  I miss my older babies.  They are spending time with Mamaw and Papaw and are loving it—but they miss us too. 

We are told that Kalyn has been crying at school, and Keali won’t talk to us.  The most we ever get from her is a grunt or two.  Last night when we talked to them, Heath said, “Kalyn.  I have a secret.  You will always be my baby.”  She said that she knew that. 

When she spoke with me, she said, “Mommy.  I have a secret.  You will always be my Mommy.  You can’t tell anyone but Daddy.”  So, I know I just spilled the secret, but I don’t think she will mind.  What did I do when she said this?  I cried of course.  She is such a sweetie!  I can’t wait to be back with them, and I hope that we can get Kynan and Kaci well enough quickly to have them transferred back to Paragould so we can be closer to the girls. 

When we are a whole family again, I will be so happy!

I spoke with the lactation nurses last night and they gave me the best pep-talk ever!  They were from Great Britain and I don’t know…something about their accents made me trust them immediately.  That and their warm smiles.  I felt better about my decisions to do what I am doing, and it renewed my hope that things will work out well.

Heath has been working so hard to take care of all of us.  He is out doing some shopping and getting some personal time away from the hospital.  He feels cooped up after so much time and has to get away.  Today I am resting as much as possible, so I stayed here.  I hope he is finding what he needs—a manly diaper bag.  He is tired of carrying around the girly ones that I always pick out.  LOL!

I got to speak with Matthew today.  The first time in over a year and a half!  I enjoyed our conversation; though short… I was able to catch up with him a little.  I’m happy he is doing well.  Happy Birthday!