I didn’t sleep very well last night.  After my earlier post, I decided to research how large my stomach is going to get.  It’s already looking like I’m about 5 months along—I was a little nervous.  Now I am terrified again.  I’m trying not to think about it.

I feel as though we have twice the prep work to do before the babies come, and less time to do it in.  It will all get done, I know.  It’s just tiring thinking about it.

I am comforted to know that the extreme exhaustion I feel is normal, and that my rapidly growing tummy is normal too.  I have a feeling I’ll get used to being uncomfortable in sleep much earlier—you just have to deal with that. 

In all, I cry (happy tears) when I think about having two precious little (tiny) babies to hold and love.  I panic when I think about having two precious little (tiny) babies to protect from over-eager and loving big sisters.  I worry when I think about possible complications and what I’m going to do to ensure (to the best of my ability) that I go to at least 37 weeks.  I get confused when I think about how we are going to have to rearrange the house to nicely fit in two new people. 

I am filled with just about every emotion (well, not anger), and they all just take their turn being focused on.

The girls keep forgetting we are having two.  It’s kind of funny.  They will talk about the baby and we remind them we are having two.  Then they get excited all over again.  I don’t think they really understand what it means, but anyway…

Funny story.

The morning of ultrasound day, Kalyn found a tiny kernel of corn (we feed the birds dried corn—they love it, but it’s kind of messy).  She was convinced it was the Poppy Seed (our name for the baby…back when we were just having one).  She panicked and begged me to put it back into my tummy, so I put it in my belly button and all was right in the world again.

Then we had the ultrasound.  And now—you can’t convince Kalyn that it wasn’t her doing.  She thinks that it is because of her finding the ‘Poppy Seed’ and insisting it be replaced in my stomach that we now have two Poppy Seeds to take care of.  She is very proud of herself!