Kaci and I stayed in the ICU again last night.  This morning her chest x-ray showed she was slightly worse—but again…this is something that was expected.  Her behavior is quite a bit more fretful and we had a rough night.  She didn’t want to sleep at all and I did.  It was a big difference of opinion and of course she won.  She is still eating well but her cough is more persistent.

I occasionally take walks through the hospital throughout the day to get a break from the ICU.  Yesterday afternoon I walked by the nursery and saw two newborns.  Both were much larger than Kaci is.  She is six weeks old and is so much bigger than she was at birth.  I forget that she is still so small.  I always said that I wished my babies would stay small longer (they grow so fast!).  I’m re-thinking that wish now.  Be careful what you wish for right?

In the middle of the night I remembered something that Kalyn did a few days ago that made me so happy.  When Kalyn was a baby she loved being swaddled.  In fact, she wouldn’t sleep unless she was tightly swaddled.  When she would fuss, we would wrap her up and I would lightly stroke her face—from the forehead between her eyes down the bridge of her nose.  I would repeat the motion as she fell asleep—it usually didn’t take long.  She really loved that.

A few days ago we were at my In-Laws and I was exhausted so I went into a bedroom where the kids were watching cartoons and Kalyn said she would snuggle me until I fell asleep (isn’t she sweet!).  As I was falling asleep, I felt Kalyn stroke my face.  From the forehead between my eyes down the bridge of my nose.  She did it a few times then kissed my cheek.  I have told her before that I had done that when she was a baby and I still do it occasionally when we snuggle.  I thought it was so sweet that she did it to me to help me fall asleep.  What an angel!